Saturday, July 23, 2011
The Last Year or So
Greetings, Faithful Friends & Readers,
Some of you have noticed my rare appearances on the web and the attached lack of posts and other displays of life. For a year or so, and especially the last six months much has been going on in my real life, and this world, the internet world, just hasn't seemed in the least bit important. I take that as a sign of real mental health on my part.
However, I miss so many of you and must face the fact that if I do not reach out from time to time others are equally likely to remain silent and that simply won't do. So...catch up time, then. I suppose two things in particular have had the biggest effect on my life of late----
First, my divorce finally came through last December after fighting for it for 9 years. To the poor guy in the wheelchair at the courthouse, the one whom I screamed "I'm divorced motherfucker!" directly into his face, I owe an apology. To those folks on the streets of Bartow Florida back in December who heard some crazy lady screaming out the car window--that was me. 'sorry if I scared you, and I promise, I am sure you are not actually motherfuckers.
And next, I went back to school to study psychology, and ended up becoming interested in primatology and behaviorism and the connection between the evolution of hominids and primate behavior. We'll see where I go with this but I will keep going to school because it fills me up.
As the mom of five there are all sorts of other things but they are the basis of everyday life, even if they are unusual for others. Suffice to say the one thing that looms large is the impending release of a certain inmate we know and the desire that justice would somehow actually be just.
In Satanic terms I want to say that without the things I have learned through the practice of Satanism, my life would feel significantly less than it does. Satanism allows me to take all positive credit as well as all negative blame for the actions I take. That certainty demands a degree of responsibility that others who spend time on their knees simply cannot comprehend.
This becomes evident when I spend time in a self-help group I attend. As oxymoronic as it sounds many of those attending seek the Higher Power method/12 steps to deal with their issues. Their constant need to assign responsibility to God continually fails. Worse still, they blame themselves for failure and give God kudos for their successes. 'no wonder they are so irresponsible and empty to boot??!! I'll kick or kiss my own ass, thanks.
So, again, all thanks to the CoS and The Satanic Bible for doing everything from giving me great friends and a kick ass fiancee to allowing me to utilize my inherent knowledge to support my chosen lifestyle and my sense of justice.